Sometimes it attacks us all: desperation. You cannot but ask yourself, ‘why me?’. The answer could lie in the words of some great woman or man,
‘You deserve the life you’ve got.’ Or,
‘If it’s not working out, do something about it.’
But change is difficult, and even if part of that change is positive, there are things that are hard to get used to, and some things that seem impossible. And it’s scary.
I’m talking about our move, as usual. Through this whole process of our migration from the country to a city, which became inevitable six months ago, I’ve never doubted that it’s the right thing to do. Not really. I know it had to happen and I’m ready for it.
Still, there are days like today when all I want to do is lie down on the kitchen floor, bang my fists against the lovely oak planks, and cry my eyes out.
But instead I’ll pull my socks up and go to the Babington book club. I’ll discuss The Russian Dreambook of Colour and Flight by Gina Oschner with my fellow book lovers and we’ll delve into the much less charming world that Oschner paints, where the dead won’t stay quiet, apartment blocks have no sanitation and sink into the mud, workers aren’t paid and the children go feral. And I’ll realise that things aren’t that bad after all.
I remember only too well what it was like buying this place, the stress and frustration .. also selling making sure it all went through etc etc …
You have my sympathy. I have actually gone out into the sunshine to clear some of the mess today, as its on hold for a couple of weeks but looks like a bomb site. xx
Ooh I don't know… I find lying on the oak floor and banging my head against it strangely therapeutic – gives me something else to cry about when everything else goes wrong! Hang in there x
Ah yes…in times of desperation, it's always useful to note that there are those far worse off than you. But hey ho, Keep Calm and Carry On, yes? 😀
Also, that book sounds really fascinating. Would you recommend it?
I've just come back form the book club and the general consensus seems to be that this books is 'mad'…but it really gives you an insight into Russia at its worst, and it's very surreal. So with that reservation I would recommend it, Sam.
Wildernesschic and Forty not Out – Thanks, it's complicated but I'm OK. xx
OOOh oak planks that does sound lovely…I can relate to the despair that change can at times bring about, for that very reason I'm acting a bit cowardly and sitting on the fence waiting for the universe to give me a shove. That book sounds interesting:-)
Meh sure some of life is what you make it and sometimes why me is the truth- I think it's fine to allow yourself the odd wallow- then dust yourself off and on you go x